It seems to me lately
A cloud, cruel, innately
Has taken up residence in my head.
It's calm and collected,
Its mission perfected:
To make me ever aware of its homestead.
Its belly darkens grayer,
Releases rains heavy and heavier;
Cats and dogs don't do it justice.
'You don't belong here!' I tell it,
'There's only room for one zealot!'
So it dormant lies for a solstice.
But it snidely reminds me
It'll be back for afternoon tea
And perhaps stay for a midnight storm.
I declare, 'We won't let you win!
With your dark eyes and puffy chin,
And your cleverly placed last words!'
perfect time of day for a walk
my dove, my lamb
my love
I would've been a train robber
david bazan and john krasinski
one of my favorite musicians is apparently friends with one of my favorite tv show actors...
albert camus
7 comments:
I couldn't relate to this more.
I've felt very invaded in the past year.
Read my last blog post "living in the spirit".
Maybe it will speak to you.
And I think the thing most frustrating about this overwhelmingly messy mind we are experiencing is just what you said,
"Its mission perfected:
To make me ever aware of its homestead."
Although... mine is NOT calm and collected.
My mind is very quick and never seems to slow down. I hate it lots.
Although, if there's one thing we are experiencing similarly, it's that we are focusing on our sins... so we will keep sinning. Focus on God and your messy, sinful thoughts will blead out one by one.
I like your post, too, Will. Thanks.
People struggle with differing things and also handle them differently. For me it's been more of just a general "down" feeling, mixed with anxiety.
But no matter what, it's always comforting to here loved ones' similar feelings. Not that I want you to feel that way, but you know what I mean. It's just nice to know you're not alone.
Thanks for the encouragement! Love you.
*hear, not here
Audrey, I really can't wait to get to know you better. It's funny because whenever I read your blog or have talked to you on more serious matters in person, I feel like I can really relate to you. That cloud you talk about is a daily battle for me to. I was actually about to write about it! One thing I can say that I've noticed, though, is that really all it ever is is God testing me. Not feeling well the majority of the time I'm convinced can let negativity seep into our brains. Not only is our body fighting whatever, but our brain has to as well and sometimes it's just too tiring! You'll be in my prayers :)
Thanks so much Liz. That means a lot to me! And I can't wait to get to know you better too! :) I'm glad you liked it and can relate.
Thanks again.
This is really, really good. Thank you for writing it!
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